and then I found out how hard it is to really change. even hell can get comfy once you've settled in. I just wanted the numb inside me to leave. no matter how fucked you get, it's always there when you come back down. the funny thing is...all I ever wanted, I already had. there's glimpses of heaven in every day, in the friends that I have, the music I make, the love that I feel...I just had to start again.
the days are a death wish, a witch hunt for an exit, I am powerless. the fragile, the broken...sit in circles and stay unspoken. we are powerless. everybody wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die. I can't fear death no longer, I've died a thousand times. why explore the universe? when we don't know ourselves? there's emptiness inside our heads that no one dares to dwell. throw me to the flames, watch me burn. set my world ablaze, watch me burn. how are we on a scale of one to ten? could you tell me, what you see? do you want to talk about it? how does that make you feel? have you ever took a blade to your wrists? have you been skipping meals? we're going to try something new today. how does that make you feel? hold me close, don't let go, watch me. hold me close, don't let go, watch me. hold me close, don't let go, watch me....
in this hospital for souls.
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